In the wrong position

Ladies and gentlemen, would you now please take your leaveBecause we've sat back looking and nearly been tookEven been scared but now I don't care and I'm telling anyone who'll listenI've seen what's on show and now there's no more to know'Cause I've been there, I've been seen there, I've seemed it, dreamed it,schemed it, beened it

Last had a word with a Mr Baw Heid and took offence at his matter of fact stance, och....

The times they are all changing and not staying the same anymore. I don't want to be in compliance with a change for the worse but I am involved with some contrivance of indelicate knowledge, which is the highest degree of speculative faculties- and has begat me the powers of deceit. Power not action mind

No lies have been spoken or confidences transgressed, no wrong doing in the formal sense, but, yes there are most definite needs for a terrible wisdom - and I am with that. My past is a nightmare of anguish and loss amidst a wee bit of wise manoevering I suppose. The future is scraping at the door and has been for a long time. The scrapes have formed a sizeable indentation and looks like the internal surface is about to be breached unless that is, some prohibitive measures are taken up. the future will not be compromised and will surely not be sullied by this inquisition. Oh no! Ask all you like-- I'm giving nothing away

I’d hoped that by this time in my  (!?life!?) to have found myself nearer...not even close. Looking back as I occasionally do, I recall differing thoughts particular to certain epochs in my existence but these are common and were never of great consequence, as are the present meanderings-- simply an act of chronicle/analysis.. and discovering that WE ARE IN THE WRONG POSITION.
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Just walkin’ in the rain.  cryin’ again, and getting really upset about certain things without good reason. Temperature is rising and we’re gonna crash so we better get out. Headin’ for a wall -no getting away from it all. WE ARE IN THE WRONG POSITION…

If we get re-adjusted and accustomed to being trusted then we may find out from what we are running --it can be like a wall coming at a hunner mile anhour.-- . and I’m not the only one. Gonnae crash -we're all gonnae crash - hit the breaks, raise the stakes, make mistakes, earthquakes, nervous shakes-- for goodness sake. WE ARE IN THE WRONG POSITION, put on your skates were heading for the gates and altered states will be our fates- better increase the tension- I have to mention- the outcome is --that WE ARE IN THE WRONG POSITION!

Did I grow up? ​?mibby I missed out on something and didn't do it properly, ... Dunno if it does damage, but has benefits and anti benefits/deprivations... Need to look into both the outcomes that may be ever echoing in endless repercussion.

Constantly in a state of temporary situations these days. Living for three years and maybe five and maybe ten, in a state of flux. Ok, yeah I know about impermanence an' that but I'm just talking about the lack of stability and familiarity with my surroundings-- they keep changing and they keep on being out of my control to a larger extent than what makes me comfortable. And I know too that when I finally manage to shake off this temporal situation, an anxiety will overcome me and, a desire for movement and change and uncertainty will eclipse my feeling of security. “When the mind is secure it is in decay” according to Krishnamurti. --I'm of the same opinion, I think!

So there we have it. There it is. And there it goes. Over the wall under the fence and into the wild blue yonder, the field the future the rest of your lives the positive negative wholesome dolesome bothersome lonesome and sometimes fearsome. WE ARE IN THE WRONG POSITION.
And I thank you for remaining
with love
  ..ed